Almosts examines old wounds, fateful connections, cyclical grief, and various ways in which “almost” affects living, loving, and letting go. With this project I dissected my own experience with grief and recovery, visualizing the idea of grief as love with no where left to go. Using red string drawn from Chinese folklore about fate, I reimagined the motif to represent a lingering connection.

The short film follows two people, no longer a part of eachother's lives, but once deeply intertwined. As the relationship unraveled, each were left with old ties and a love they no longer knew what to do with. Both grieving someone still alive, they began subconsciously seeing each other. Exhausted of these "almost encounters," the two try to rid themselves of this tether that’s quickly consuming their lives. In the end, despite being so close to cutting ties, he hesitates and she refuses, both only almost able to move on.

Get Out/Get Back follows the disorienting, flighty feeling of getting older. At eighteen, my apprehension about my age became overwhelming. I felt childish, insecure in my unpreparedness after having grown up so fast. This accelerated emotional aging left my body trying to make up for what it had missed. I had spent my life entirely focused on escaping my circumstances without considering what life would look like once I “got out.” So, my steps backwards were unexpected, and, for a split second, I was left with an uncomfortable urge to “get back” to what was comfortable, though dysfunctional, despite having successfully made it out. This very short film reminded me of the ways I hold myself back, and the importance of letting go, allowing myself grow in the ways a new life will require of me.